What am I getting myself into?
I’ve never really liked two people this much at the same time before & I don’t like it. I makes me feel horrible. I feel like I’m not being loyal to either of them & it makes me sick to my stomach… They’re both two of the most down to earth, understanding, non-judge mental guys I have ever met. One thing I hate the most though is hurting peoples feelings because I know how it feels, but the longer I wait comes with more attatchment & the harder everything gets. Maybe I should just stick to being single the rest of my goddamn life because that’s the only thing I’m good at… Ugh, why did they both have to enter my life at the same time?
I don’t like telling people my problems.
I don’t want the attention drawn to me. I don’t want them to worry, they cant fix the problem, and I don’t like the feeling of opening up and feeling vulnerable. Yes, I need help and I’m dying on the inside, but I want to handle it all by myself.
